March 19, 2005 by Isaac Hovet
I don’t mind being as heavy as I am in most instances. Sure, it would be nice to fit into all the clothes I own, be able to look in the mirror and see a middle that blended in with the rest of my torso or not be borderline obese.
However, what I long for more is to not be controlled by food . . .
There are times in which I do well, but 90% of my life has been enslaved to food. I set out to be in control, but . . . cookies, chips, crackers, burgers, etc call to me . . .
Why can’t I crave cauliflower and lettuce?
I absolutely can’t stand starting and failing diets, but that is the cycle that I am currently in.
I currently weigh 4048 oz. I need to be at 3600 to be considered healthy . . .
I want to be freed from the endless cycle . . .
I want victory . . .
Is it my vanity? My conviction that God frees us from bondage? My legitimate health concerns? All of the above?
God . . . loose these heavy (ha) chains . . .
What can I do? Where can I turn? Who will be there for me?
The biggest question . . . can I change? Will I?